a blog with a title

write me a ballad

2010-09-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

A ballad is what every man wants to say and

what every woman wants to hear.. - Kenny Rogers

staying in love.

another magic moment

2010-05-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

There's that one tiny moment when you look up at the sky, and you witness something amazing.
I was given that moment a while ago, and it was magical. As every moment in our lives. Because God's mercies are new at every tiniest bit of a second.

Tonight, at 11:15pm, May 17, 2010, I saw my second shooting star. It was a sight. That very moment I turned to look up at the sky, I saw it. See how God makes you appreciate all that he did? It was a moment of being in the right place, at the right time. He makes all things beautiful in His time.

God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. Very good indeed.

It was another magic moment.

you must

2010-04-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

"What does it mean to truly love another?"

"...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."

I finally had the time to watch the movie a while ago. It's a heartbreaker. Made me cry. My eyes are poofy. And I love it. It's a must-read-the-book and must-watch-the-movie kind of story. All Nicholas Sparks novels-turned-movies, they all made me cry. All the stories are touching, moving and they will all make you fall in love.

*sigh

Looking forward to "The Last Song" - movie version. I think it will have me crying too. The book did. All of the Sparks' novels that I read so far did.

sana sa halalan

2010-04-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

Sana sa darating na halalan, lahat tayo ay bumoto sa tamang kandidato...

Sana ang mga kandidato, di lang puro salita at puro commercial at puro pambabato ng putik sa kalaban..

Sana ang mga kandidato, maging tama ang motibo sa pagtakbo... pag hindi, pede back out ka na?

Sana maging maayos ang bagong sistema sa botohan...

Sana ayusin na ng mga Pilipino ang pagpili...

Sana matino. Sana may alam. Sana hindi nga kurakot. Sana may magagawa. Sana may takot sa Diyos.

Sana talaga.

Kasi naman! Yang mga ads na "Stop mudslinging!" ay parang nang-mmudsling din. Sounds vague, but you'd get my drift. Lalo na kung Pinoy ka. Nakakainis lang.

Pagbabago talaga. Yan ang kailangan ng bawat isa.

crayon drive

2010-04-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

Save the world one crayon at a time. New lives for old crayons!

I teach preschool students and I love seeing them coloring our activities away but crayons are dismembered in the process because the kids "share" the crayons. I hope I can do something to save them. The stubs just end up in the bottom of our ice cream can-turned-crayon box or trodden or black instead of its real color or worse, outside, melting away on the cement.

I saw this program called Crazy Crayons and instrctions for recycling crayons. I want to be one of the crayon recycling people!

Color up!

fear

2010-04-12T08:43:00.000-07:00

the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom...

Proverbs 9:10

you want to learn?
you want success?
you want to be able to love?
you want to do anything?

fear the Lord.

because you need wisdom. in everything you do, you're going to need it.

the fear of the Lord is the beginning of everything.

set thy soul ablaze

2010-04-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

this summer let's all set our hearts ablaze for service.

He that gathereth in summer is a wise son: but he that sleepeth in harvest is a son that causeth shame.

Proverbs 10:5

100

2010-03-24T18:55:00.000-07:00

This is my 100th post! Let's celebrate!

Why is it that sunshine is a metaphor for being in love? Duh.

♪ Sunshine through my window... that's what you are... ♫

♫ You are my sunshine... my only sunshine.. you make me happy when skies are gray.. ♪

♪ Hey look at the sun.. it's fin'lly shining down my life... it's shining down my life... and it's all because of you...♪

That's cause being in the sun makes you feel light and happy.. except when it's too hot?

is it because when you're in love.. you see great things.. happy things..

"the sun is shining, the birds are singing.."

you're in love!

and is that because summer is love? :)

it's summer and it's time to get to the beaches!

wow

2010-03-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

wow. was browsin' through my older posts...
wishing i can post longer entries again.

my life is so cramped. no. it's not actually that cramped. i just can't find time. or maybe i'm not really looking for it. wah. i will find time. where is it?

there are a lot of things to talk about. and i'm gonna talk about them. soon.

wish i had my laptop so i can post anytime. grr.

well, even if life is busy. i am still thankful. grateful. for every little thing i have. for every second i have in this crazy world. maybe i can un-crazy it.

perceptions do matter. how you live your life is a contributor for the craziness.

celebrate

2010-03-18T18:48:00.000-07:00

HOORAY!

Live and love your life.

Ü

daybreak

2010-02-01T23:16:00.000-08:00

so you woke up really early.

as you start out, you look up at the sky. the moon is still up and the sun is rising.

it's daybreak.

and the sight is just amazing. the word amazing is not even close.

as the sun takes its place up in the sky, the moon slowly hides over the horizon.

on the east, the sky is tinged with orange, light coming from the sun.

on the other side, the sky is a cool shade of purple and blue.

light and dark on the same dome, on the same sky, both seeking attention, for just a few moments.

orange and yellow on the east, purple and blue on the west.

it was astounding. bewildering. mystifying.

this post wouldn't even give justice to the scene. words are not enough.

the beauty of creation praises God's name.

alaala

2010-01-03T07:52:00.000-08:00

'pag iniwan ka, di mo talaga maiiwasang magisip na hindi ka mahal.

'pag matagal ka nang mag-isa, nahihilom na ng panahon yung mga sugat mo.

'pag okay na yung mga sugat mo, kaya mo na ulit makipagsapalaran.

'pag kaya mo na ulit, mas madali na lang yung iba pang hamon ng buhay.

kaya okay lang siguro na iwan ka muna. kahit matagal. kahit sandali.

mabuti ang Diyos.

naniniwala ako sa katotohanan na 'yon.

yung ibibigay nya sayong pagsusulit, alam N'yang kayang kaya mo!

gaano man yun kabigat para sayo.

sounds cool

2009-12-17T17:38:00.000-08:00

The sounds I hear when I go to work.

"Cubao.. baw baw baw baw.."

"Kendi kayo riyan ateh, kuyah. Ay. Kendi. Kendi kayo riyan.."

"Taho mam, ser, mainit pa.. taho. taho kayo jan mam, ser."

"broom broom.. " "beep beep" "screeechh.."

"Magallanes... Mantraaaaaade.."

"Pasaaay Rod.. Pasay Rod..."

"Ayala... Ayalaaaa naaa.."

"Buenja.. Buenja.."

"Guadalupe.. Tulay tulaayy.. Guadalupe.."

"Pioneer.. Pioneer.. "

"Boni... Yung mga Boni jan o..."

"Relayaaaaanssss... "

"Crossing.. Crossing.. Edsa Central na... "

So, basically, that's how I get to the office. Haha!

It was fun and I enjoyed it. Ü

I'll miss
and RMC. Ü

pasko na

2009-12-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

Christmas time is here again.

:)

yay! looking forward to a merry one.

Just catching up on my blog posts.

of staplers and paper clips

2009-12-09T05:17:00.000-08:00

It's been a while.

So, I'm currently in an Internship program with IBM, and kind of almost done with it too.

I just want to say that paper clips and staplers really help out with your work. It's amazing how such little things can do so much. Haha!

I ♥ it.

stellar

2009-07-24T19:51:00.000-07:00

astronomy got the best of me.

i so love the moon and stars.

how the firmament of the heavens just "domes" on me..

how i tiny down when i see how vast God's work is...

how eclipses and clear starry skies make me all giddy inside and out...

how every crescent moon makes every night magical..

how every shooting star makes me sigh...

i love it much.

saturday

2009-07-24T19:46:00.000-07:00

it's saturday!

haha! :) ramblings and stuff.

day dream

2009-07-10T20:00:00.017-07:00

the little ordinary things that everyone ought to do
I'm living in a kind of daydream
I'm happy as a queen

the mere idea of you, the longing here for you
you'll never know how slow the moments go till I'm near to you
I see your face in every flower
your eyes in stars above
it's just the thought of you
the very thought of you, my love

i love this song. can you imagine seeing someone in every flower? it's just... *sigh*

"the very thought of you... "

head over heels

2009-07-02T03:31:00.000-07:00

na-head over heels ka na ba?

medyo masakit ata yun. haha.

tipong no more thinking just because you love someone?

sabi nila kapag in love ka daw, mahirap nang maging rational?

"Love is the only rational act."
-tuesdayswithmorrie

sabi din nila letting your emotions take control of your life would actually cause chaos.

i say, i think that depends kung ano'ng nasa puso mo. or more than that, kung sino.

which ever way you look at it, hindi talaga natin minsan maiintindihan kung paano mag-move ang love.

cheesy kung cheesy. korni kung korni.

love is different.

I Corinthians 13

♥

stories from the past

2009-06-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

kumanta ako with big bird on sesame street.
naabutan ko MIGHTOR.
sinuot ko high heels ni mama pati sapatos ni daddy.
the first day I went to school, I cried.
nahirapan ako sa "telling the time" lesson nung kinder.
dati I wave good bye to planes passing by.
I always sing 'somewhere out there'.

nanghiram ako ng bike at sumemplang na.
nakapaglaro pa ako ng tumbang preso, mataya taya at bente uno.
bumabaha sa amin noon.
may kalaro akong saksakan ng kulet.

muntik na akong masagasaan ng trolley buti na lang nakailag ako. [haha]
ten twenty laro namin habang naghihintay ng klase. panghapon ako eh.
pinapakanta kami sa harap pag Music na ang subject.
mas malalaki yung mga kaklase ko kesa sa akin.

love namin pag may fire drill kasi wala munang class sa trigonometry.
hinahatiran kami ng baon tuwing lunch.
sa platform kami kumakain. hindi sa canteen.
may cheerdance competition sa school ko dati. panalo kami lagi.

pumupunta kaming 711.
bumibili kami ng ice candy tapos kumakain kami sa Jimanji.
uuwi kami 7pm na.
saya 'pag may stories from the past.

now

2009-06-28T22:20:00.000-07:00

what is now?

now is something really vague.

there is really no such thing as now is there?

as soon as you say "now", now is gone.

now is really hard to explain.

♥

some people

2009-06-26T20:38:00.001-07:00

some people just don't know when to shut up.

some people just creep you out.

some people just. they just.

grr.

it's saturday today. june 27. and i guess you already know what time is it.

an old post from an old blog

2009-06-22T21:37:00.000-07:00

The Enneagram. The activity was nice. It was fun. I didn’t expect that I’d get the results that I got. (Oi.. that sounds pretty clear to me.) But the results that I got were really the characteristics that I have. It is useful. (We should take more of ‘em enneagrams. Haha.) It gave out guidelines on how to deal with other people and I got to know more about my classmates. As every personality type is described I would turn to the described people and I’d say: “OO nga anu.. ganun nga siya…” Cool.

Danielle: Dad, we took an Enneagram test kanina…

Dad: Really? What’s Enneagram?

Danielle: A personality test… I’m a ONE… Perfectionist daw…

Dad: Really? How come it doesn’t show?

It really doesn’t show, doesn’t it? Haha. Or maybe it doesn’t show because I don’t really show it? Why would I show it? But sometimes it shows because it comes naturally. Kaching kaching! I know. I can tell. And I guess it’s TRUE. The test results are me.

Perfectionist. I guess I am really one. Oh no. Hate me now. I’m so sorry for this post. I know it makes me sound like… yah know. Sorry.

I am a ONE. Tolerant, self-disciplined, reasonable, responsible, tense, and anxious and always takes things seriously. SERIOUSLY.

(Whoa. I’m having a hard time here. Ang hirap.)

Here are some evidences(?) Hala.

How do you get along with me?

“Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.”

Please do. You can read my second blog entry about this. Most of the time, I end up with all the work because I want things done. And I want it done because I want it done.

“I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am and encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight.”

I am really the worried-all-the-time type of person. I get so scared of being reprimanded. When I forget things, I feel very bad about it. Minsan, kapag nagagalit ang isang tao, kahit sa isang buong grupo pa siya galit, I feel na ako lang ang pinapagalitan. And help me laugh at myself, I’m always all too serious.

What about being a ONE?

“I can be the best I can be and I can bring out the best in other people.”

Yeah. Maybe, I guess so. I can be critical at times. I try to tell people what I think about things. Enough said. Embarassed

What’s hard being like me?

“Feeling burdened by too much responsibility.”

Because I like to lead, keep papers and write, sometimes the papers get piled up on me and my group mates are nowhere to be found, I end up with all the work. I feel that I should always be responsible for things and I get the job done by saying: “Wah! Andami ko pang gagawin!” coupled with cramming.

“Not being appreciated for what I do for people.”

Am I really not appreciated? Back in high school, yep! I always try to do things for others that sometimes, I end up abused. I don’t know if “abused” is the right term. Parang sobra naman. But you’d get it. Yah know.

What about being me as a daughter?

I criticize myself in anticipation of criticism from my siblings. You know how it is when your parents are in the mood of annoying you? Haha. “Tingnan mo si Mealyn (not my sister’s real name)… blah blah blah…” “Buti pa si ganto… ganyan ganyan…” I do criticize myself. “Siguro nga…” “ Kaya siguro ganito ganyan ganyan..” Sniff sniff.

I am “good”. I deny or keep my frustrations to myself. I want to share my festival mall, SM and ATC experiences. This is what happens in a mall. My sister comes to dad, says: “Dad, bili mo ko nun!” Dad: “No!” Here she comes…. She pouts the pout……. AND!!! There!!! She got it!!! She got what she wanted!!! YES!!! She did it again!! What a play by the little one!!! Woo. Hey. I love my sister. And I just loooove making fun of her. Haha. This happens a lot. And I just keep it all to myself. But I shared it now. So, it's not all to myself. I also want things. I also say: "Dad, bili moko nun!" But when he says NO. It's really gonna be a NO because I don't want guilt feelings of persuasion and kakulitan.

Driving Force: Anger

Need: Patience

Yes, definitely. I need patience. I need to go easy on details and things. I need extra tolerance. As I said earlier, help me laugh.

OK. Tama na. Hindi na ako makahinga. Kidding.

(from people.dlscanlubang.org) fun!

a starbucks experience

2009-06-22T19:31:00.001-07:00

you order the perfect brew from
the counter..
you hear music swelling in
the background..
you smell the relaxing aroma of
ground coffee beans..
you feel you're going to enjoy this
very cup..

you wait for the moment your name echoes in
that white mocha colored hall..
then you hear it.
you get the immaculate white cup from the counter
and smile..

you plop down a plushy couch while
clutching your drink and feeling warm all over..
you take a sip and let the blissful feeling
engulf your senses...

take you away on a journey.. ♥

[trying a hand on creative writing. haha. labeet!]

data mining

2009-06-12T18:56:00.000-07:00

data mining class. prof not here yet.

sleepy. went to batangas with the whole family yesterday. as in my family. mom. dad. dabs. boch. pet.

then dinner at teriyaki boy in tagaytay. :)

time of our life. catching waves. salty sea. chicken. laughing. sand.

happy days.

and goodbyes suck. :(

but still. grateful for the time with them.

blogging

2009-05-26T09:56:00.000-07:00

haha! Posted from a phone capable of wireless browsin' or sumthin'.. Haha.

We have a new baby in the house..
Please welcome mia francette b. mantes!

haha! So excited.. Pretty girl.. :))

summer

2009-05-17T18:37:00.000-07:00

summer has been fun... actually..

i really enjoyed it.. went swimming. danced in the rain. basked in the sun.
new friends. old friends. bad friends. good friends. revelations.

yah know. usual and great stuff.

it was great.

really great.

i loved it.

though it's about to end... (wah.)

i'm gonna love what's next.

school is on the way. and i'm a senior. wee.

:)

lalala

2009-04-01T19:25:00.001-07:00

lalala..

spring is in the air and i'm a flower. there's nothing interesting to say.

break

2009-03-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

break time.

woohpee.

badtrip enlistment!

their incompetency is simply and utterly unacceptable.

deym. >:o

take time

2009-03-06T00:40:00.000-08:00

I just want to tke this time to take time to chill.

Chill.

haha. I like chillin'. It makes life fun.

Enjoy. Life. is. short.

"i can do all these, knowing that my God will bring me to judgement..."

be like the fountain that overflows, not merely the cistern that contains...

-veronikadecidestodie

yay.

2009-03-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

It's been a month since I posted. yay!

Nothing happening actually. I'm just happy. I don't know why.

God's grace is always there to fall in love with. His mercies endure forever.

happy. in love. living by faith. my God is an awesome God.

what if?

2009-02-10T22:06:00.001-08:00

what if someone significant in the past is coming back ... ?
what if you don't know how to take it?

what do you do?

when you wait for something for a long time, then it finally comes, what are you going to do?

how do you face the music?

when it's the music you've been wanting to hear and now that you can hear it, you feel like it sounds too good to be true...

2009 post

2009-01-21T18:27:00.000-08:00

yeah! timesrs time. woohpeeh!

LSS: broken and spilled out... ♫

haven't written stuff since last year. bah! so bored.

pizza and adventure

2008-12-18T00:06:00.000-08:00

This week is a whole lot of fun.

Monday - Shakey's with friends. We ate pizza of course.
Tuesday - To NAIA and to an S&R (we don't know what branch) and we ate pizza.
Wednesday - To Shakey's again for lunch and then to Greenbelt. Timezoned. Starbucked. Had a great time singing 12 days of Christmas. We even made our own version.
Thursday - To Austin's place cuz we had to do a report. Ordered Yellow Cab Pizza.

Haha! my week so far. And so far it has been great.

monstro city

2008-12-08T22:11:00.000-08:00

been playing moshimonster during infosys. so fun. that little monster eats the cursor! ha ha. :D

can't wait

2008-11-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

(smoldering, ocher eyes)

i obviously can't wait. just like those other twilight fans.

we just have to get a grip. falling in love with someone like Edward Cullen is way out of the human world. the fact that he's a vampire and that he's a fictional character. but still. i fell in love. and a lot of people fell in love too.

the book is so much better for sure.

(book cover)

i'll never let you go

2008-11-20T02:39:00.000-08:00

I've been a-waiting since I can't remember
I've been a-waiting just to find somebody true
Somebody like you
Do you know?
I'll never let you go

I used to think about another morning
I'd think about it and it used to make me blue
But then I found you
Do you know?
I'll never let you go

-by jakaranda, parent trap soundtrack

flower

2008-11-12T05:11:00.001-08:00

a flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.

-fa zhou, mulan

extremely annoyed

2008-11-12T04:52:00.000-08:00

sheesh.
i wonder what is so wrong about being quiet.
people should learn how to shut that mouth and tie that stupid tongue.
it's not an easy task, but hey! it's worth a try, yah know.
and it probably won't make you feel tactless all the time.
and that you already are.
so please zip it.

why the heck write all these here?
these should be shoved right down their throats so they'd give it a rest.
yeah.
i'd like that.
but as much as i'd like that, it's worth nothing.
'cause they're quite good at it. (hey, you are very much welcome.. )
but hey! it's worth a try.

i could actually talk about it the whole day just as much as you'd like to annoy people the whole day.

stop b*tching me around. you are so not the boss of me.

-disturbed. forgive me. i just want to write it down. it kills hiding all this. hahahahaha!

color me chocolate

2008-11-10T18:22:00.000-08:00

everybody's different that's why everybody's unique.

how cool is that? how confusing?

if everybody's different, no one will be unique? err. i messed it up. haha!

the world is a dark and depressing place without chocolate. ♥

frustration

2008-10-31T00:24:00.000-07:00

Frustration is an interesting emotional state because it tends to bring out the worst in whoever is frustrated.

This week is hell. Our college week is coming up and we are all nearing nervous breakdown.

scratch that. leave it.

sleepless

2008-10-17T00:10:00.000-07:00

Love.
Love is not crazy and that's the weirdest thing about it.

the end

2008-09-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

Twilight again. Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.

in love, definitely.

2008-09-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

until i get over you

2008-09-05T06:56:00.000-07:00

Woke up today thinking of you

Another night that I made my way through

So many dreams still left in my mind

But it can never come true

I press rewind and remember when

I close my eyes and I'm with you again

But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name

Walked through the park, in the evening air

I heard a voice and I thought you were there

I run away but I just can't escape

Memories of you everywhere

They say that time will dry the tears

But true love burns for a thousand years

Give my tomorrows for one yesterday

Just to know that I could have you here

The sun won't shine since you went away

Seems like the rain's falling every day

There's just one heart, where there once was two

But that's the way it's gotta be,

'til I get over you…

emotional- on- the- inside mode...♥

course cards

2008-09-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I learned a lot in the faculty room as we got our cards and as some students asked for adjustments with their grades.

"Grades are not like items in the market. You can't bargain for 'em."
-Ms. Malu, English Prof

"It's not all over yet. As long as it's not over, you'll still get your second wind."
-Ms. Kath, Innovate Prof

"Hindi nasusukat ng mga numero ang talino."
-Ms. Alona, Filipino Prof

Who's up for term break? I know I do. I am thankful for my grades. Really.

'Twas a great term!

deliriously happy

2008-09-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

"I know we're too young to talk about forever but now, it's what it feels like..."

that dream academe

2008-09-01T21:46:00.000-07:00

What's with this reality show? I don't see why someone would want to himself or herself be seen on TV putting on roll-on, picking up her undergarments and talking nonsense for more than thirty minutes. It's just ridiculous. I don't have anything against the show, but-- Ok, I do have something against the show. Actually, it doesn't look anything like real to me... Of course, these guys know that they're gonna be on TV, so are they really acting real? I mean, they auditioned for the show!
I see nothing real and I don't think they act normal..so.. in conclusion, I think shows like this just, I don't know... waste air time? But, it appeals to others so.. whatever.

I'm even tuned in to it. Duh. That's why I had to say something. I really should turn the crap off.

casablanca

2008-08-27T20:29:00.000-07:00

Makes the spine tingle and the heart take a leap. Entertaining and inspiring.
- Bosley Crowther, THE NEW YORK TIMES

I watched this movie the other day, it really is a hit. It's old, right.. but it's worth the watch. I really loved their lines. Loved the way they acted their parts and I especially loved Ingrid Bergman.

Ingrid Bergman was really beautiful. Elegant. Look at her.
She's an angel right? LOL. I'm just appreciating beauty.

A movie part I loved:

Ilsa: Rick, I have to talk to you.
Rick: [Rick is drunk] Uh-huh. I saved my first drink to have with you. Here.
[passes her a drink]
Ilsa: No. No, Rick, not tonight

Rick: *Especially* tonight.
Ilsa: Please...
[he pours a drink]
Rick: Why did you have to come to Casablanca? There are other places.
Ilsa: I wouldn't have come if I'd known that you were here. Believe me Rick, it's true I didn't know...
Rick: It's funny about your voice, how it hasn't changed. I can still hear it. "Richard, dear, I'll go with you anyplace. We'll get on a train together and never stop - "
Ilsa: Don't, Rick! I can understand how you feel.
Rick: [scoffs] You understand how I feel. How long was it we had, honey?
Ilsa: [on the verge of tears] I didn't count the days.
Rick: Well, I did. Every one of 'em. Mostly I remember the last one. The wild finish. A guy standing on a station platform in the rain with a comical look in his face because his insides have been kicked out.
Ilsa: Can I tell you a story, Rick?
Rick: Has it got a wild finish?
Ilsa: I don't know the finish yet.
Rick: Well, go on. Tell it - maybe one will come to you as you go along.
Ilsa: It's about a girl who had just come to Paris from her home in Oslo. At the house of some friends, she met a man about whom she'd heard her whole life. A very great and courageous man. He opened up for her a whole beautiful world full of knowledge and thoughts and ideals. Everything she knew or ever became was because of him. And she looked up to him and worshiped him... with a feeling she supposed was love.
Rick: [bitterly] Yes, it's very pretty. I heard a story once - as a matter of fact, I've heard a lot of stories in my time. They went along with the sound of a tinny piano playing in the parlor downstairs. "Mister, I met a man once when I was a kid," it always began.
[laughs]
Rick: Well, I guess neither one of our stories is very funny. Tell me, who was it you left me for? Was it Lazlo, or were there others in between or... aren't you the kind that tells?
[Ilsa tearfully and silently leaves. Rick's face falls in his hands sadly, knowing that he's said all the wrong things]

But Rick really loved Ilsa and he eventually let her go in the end.

"Here's looking at you, kid."

Love this movie!

the feeling is actual the feeling is mutual

2008-08-13T20:47:00.000-07:00

The feeling is mutual.
The feeling is actual.
The feeling is gone.

Nakakatawa lang na ganun kadali magsawa and tao sa isang relasyon. One minute, ok sila. Next, nagaaway na, tapos mamaya bati na ult. Tapos nagiging ritwal na yung ganun. Tapos pag nagtagal, sawa na. Ayaw na. Tama na. Sobra na. "It's not you, it's me" moments na. Scary di ba?

Gaano na ba kaseryoso and mga relasyon sa panahon ngayon? O mas magandang tanong ba yung Gaano na ba nagkakalolokan ang mga tao nagyon?

Mahirap mag-assume sa panahon nagyon. Minsan hindi mo alam kung sincere pa yung mga tao. Asan na sa ngayon yung level of sincerity? Meron pa nga ba? Para sa akin, siguro meron pa. Siguro lang ha, kasi nga mahirap mag-assume di ba?

Isa pang pinagtataka ko, bakit minsan isang tao lang ang nag-mo-monopolize ng relasyon? May mga sinasabi pa nga yung iba na: "Hindi siya ganyan nagyon, kundi dahil sa akin..." O diba? Fair ba yun? Tama nga naman na may nagagawa sayo na mabuti yng tao, pero 'di ibig sabihin nun sayo na umiikot mundo nya. At di ibig sabihin na kung ikaw ang gumagawa ng desisyon, eh may karapatang kang i-hold siya at hawakan siya sa leeg. (Syempre di literal 'to ah)

Ayun. So nakapagbuhos na naman ako ng sama ng loob (or di naman siguro sama) tungkl sa mga bagay bagay na na-oobserve ko. HAHA!

Saya ma-in-love pero hindi lahat yun buhay mo na.

dynprog is cool

2008-08-08T01:47:00.000-07:00

cool date today..

8-8-8

dynprog is cool.. bwahaha!

this date happens only once in our quiet world. -R.S.

ano ba ako?

2008-08-06T00:06:00.000-07:00

ano ka ba deedin?
deedin? ok ka lang?
deedin!
hui. san ka punta? sama ako...
deedin, pa-abot naman phone..
ate deedin samahan mo ako SM.

Haha! Ano ba ako?

What goes on in the itty bitty li'l brain?
For now, it's all damaged. LOL. :D

I was thinking... Is this really an unfair world? Do the bratty kids really get all that they want? All of it? All the game consoles, phones, gadgets? Or am I just not contented with what I have?

Tama. I'm just the li'l demonyita who wants to live life like I'm not me. Like I'm not blessed at all. But I am all wrong. As a matter of fact, I am so blessed. I have friends. I have a phone. (at least I have one. :D) I have a big God. And it's really all that matters.

One day of realization for the demonyita li'l me.

-post from Camille's laftaf.

Contentment is a really hard thing right?

give me some credit

2008-08-05T22:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people just need to tell you they support you...

Sometimes they too have to love and value what you do. So you keep pushing it.
It's hard to be fair sometimes, 'coz you value what they do and yet they don't when you do it.

haha! am officially badtrip... this much..( )..

-post at anna's place

happy feet

2008-08-04T06:20:00.001-07:00

to green hills.. july 30

tapos bumalik kami ng ATC.. ate pizza

tapos august1.. ATC ulit.. nood the MUMMY.. (yawn)

then we went nut-so with the camera again

to ATC! julie, charles, moi and camille

few of my favorite things

2008-08-04T05:34:00.000-07:00

Camille and I

General Assembly self portrait

the whole package... new and old members

camera addicts ü

Join.. Move.. Achieve

JMA's general assembly.. July 30, 2008,... the best!

epol apol

2008-08-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

may mansanas sa tabi ko.
an apple a day keeps the doctor away.
why would you want to keep doctors away?
what if apples are expensive?

today's august two
we went to school at eleven
we played stepmania too
and then ate pizza fresh out of the oven

we went to camille's house
'cause it's her day to celebrate
we laughed out loud
and then we ate and ate

we talked
we had fun
we walked
then at six we were gone

the perfect end to a perfect day

love it... Ü

mga problema

2008-07-29T05:29:00.000-07:00

Saklap.

1. The problem of pain
Ouch.

2. The problem of change
let change be constant c. Is it good? Changing for the better. Is it bad? Changing for the better for others at the expense of others. What happens when you change? This is what happens.
-all your friends will think you are some psycho
-the person you really hold dear thinks that you're letting go even if you're not and it just gets things all mixed up
- you confuse yourself
-your perspectives get all mixed up
-you cry for no reason
-you feel like you're not you

3. The problem of insisting to know things
Tampo ako sayo kasi... What is it? Eh wag na lang.. secret.. then you get to know why... You argue about it. You end up feeling sorry for yourself. You end up hurting another person. May lamat na yung relationship. You try to get back on things. Try to make it all better, but it's not working. It got all awkward. You're now too embarrassed to talk. You stay where you are. And it's amazing how people move on so quickly. You feel left out then the relationship becomes all stagnant. It's frozen. And all you could do is wish that you shouldn't have insisted on knowing. Life is weird. Crazy. Beautiful. Whats the problem with being insistent? Nothing. It's what you do to improve upon relationships. But sometimes , perspectives just clash. Clash. They just do.

4. The problem of getting too attached
Staple wire. Fastener. Ang hirap madikit sa tao. You take one step away, you feel like the person is too far. Ang hirap. You argue a little, it's like he or she had just planted a big slap on your face. Ang hirap. You try to get away. Hindi ka maka-alis. It's just so hard. Hard. At ang hirap umiyak kasi you'd do it every time he or she plants a slap on your face (figuratively).

5. The problem of being around nosy people
They just annoy the person in you. Period.

6. The problem of being around bossy people
Bossy people get in your nerves. Big time. You just have to get away. Why is it that you have to inform them of all your actions? It's just too much. Sobra. Anything sobra is bad. "Bakit di nyo ako tinext?" Hello. Who the h*ck are you to boss us around? Grabe. Tapos. "Iniwan mo ako.." Uhm.. I hate to break it to you.. Nakikisabay ka lang po. FYI. You don't really have the right to make people come back for you kung naiwan ka nila. Mahal ang gas. Reality check. You don't want us to boss you around din naman diba? Ah. Yeah. You wouldn't want that. Kaya nga kami ang na-b-boss around. Slick move.

7. The problem of getting too much attention
Haha. Yeah. Wag masyado dito tingin.

8. The problem of being too kind
This goes for people na takot magdamot. Don't be all that. Mahirap yun. Say NO. It's as easy as saying YES. Yes, just please say no. Papa-utang ka ulit? People have their share of the problems life has to offer. Some might look like they don't have any pero they have. They do.

Saklap talaga.

-it's pet's day.. happy birthday sisturr.. miss yah..

love love love

2008-07-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

I was reading and I can't help but post this. Before I get all lost in the book. This one's the worth the awww...

Being in someone's presence for the first time in along time is like finding that glove you gave up on. You had lost one so you couldn't wear the other. You could try, but one hand was always left out in the cold. even though there were new gloves to be bought in stores all over the city, some of them even on sale, none would ever be that pair. None of them would be broken in. Comfortable. But you wouldn't throw out the mate. You just kept it with your hats and scarves as a reminder. A hope. an then one day, when you were moving the couch to get the pen that you had dropped behind it, there it was. Your glove. Your favorite one. It had been waiting for you to reclaim mi, you just didn't know where to look. and later that day, when you went to the deli, you slipped the pair on in the elevator, and a warmth and familiarity consoled your body. Your were only going out for a container of milk, but however far you went, you felt fine.

- You Have to Kiss a Lot of Frogs by Laurie Graff

think aloud

2008-07-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

Talking is thinking out loud. Really?

I always hear that people should always think before they speak out. But some never really do that, don't they? Sometimes people end up in regret, because they said the stoopidest things and that they could not take it back. Take me for example, blurting out nonsense and then wishing I thought about thinking about it.. Did I really have to think aloud?

Sometimes saying nonsense gets rid of the awkward, dull moments. Teasing. Gossip. It's all about that big word. Gossip. You can't help it. And you need help. I need help. It's not that I do it all the time (guilty?), realizations just come to mind.

These things do get my brain worked up. I love pondering upon these things. Upon. These. Things. And then after pondering, all I could say is "Oh yeah..". It's nice to do a little mouthwash ceremony sometimes, post something about being the talkative girl that you are... Yeah.

when a man loves a woman

2008-07-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

The movie really inspired me to write. It's really worth the post. I learned so much from it.

The movie is about a couple (as almost all love stories are..) Michael (pilot) and Alice (alcoholic).

Michael loved Alice so much that every time Alice gets drunk and passes out, Michael was always there to pick up the pieces and re-arrange Alice. They made the get-drunk-pass-out-pick-up-pieces a routine which became a threat to the safety of their daughters and even jeopardize their marriage. Eventually, time came where Alice had to be sent to a rehab because she was behaving badly and it could not go on.

As Alice tried to fix her life, Michael was in the mom-dad shoes. He was stuck in what he called a crisis, he yelled at his daughters, he tried to fit in to the role. Square peg, Round hole.

When Alice came back, everything was different. She wanted everything to be different because things were awkward, she thought it wouldn't work out, she had a new friend which Michael became jealous of, everything was not normal, and she thought it could never be normal. It was just sad. The movie made me cry. So, of course you have to insert all the drama (here.) They got separated, the kids cried, she cried, he cried. They really love each other and I think they did not know how to put it. They didn't know how to bring it all on the table so they can settle things. The two eventually got back together and they reconciled their differences (with a kiss).

My point? My point exactly!

I am touched by this movie. It was really nice, though it was yet another broken family movie. I learned a lot from it.

I learned that people really have to value what they have. You have someone that loves you so much, he or she is willing to sacrifice missing you to make you a better person (Like how Michael suffered from the possibility of losing Alice).

We all have to take time and reflect on what the people who loves us do just to show us they love us.

Another thing is that we have to know what we really want and not just what we want but what we love. It sure will take a lot of time to do that but it saves all the drama. Yeah.

What we say to people affects them in ways we would not be able to know. It just remains inside them. You can't get it out of their system. It's already engraved. There. Just there. This is my major lesson in the movie.

Love it.

This looks a little long but it's worth the read. It tells so much.

"It's horrifying how much you can hate yourself for being low and weak and he couldn't save me from that. So I turned it on him; I tried to empty it onto him. But there was always more, you know. When he tried to help I told him that he made me feel small and worthless. But nobody makes us feel that, we do that for ourselves. I shut him out because I knew if he ever really saw who I was inside, that he wouldn't love me. And we're separated now, he's moved away, and it was so hard not to beg him to stay. And I don't know if I'm going to get a second chance but I have to believe. That I deserve one. Because we all do."

break away

2008-06-25T06:40:00.000-07:00

School-home school-home routine? Do something fun. It's nice to do something different and exciting once in a while...

♥ Go someplace without telling your parents.
♥ Laugh out loud!
♥ Play games at your mall's TIMEZONE.
♥ Take pictures.. lot's of 'em..
♥ Be busy with school work and org-work then break away... This means going someplace without telling your parents and going home late.

I have been a really bad girl for missing things. I was supposed to go to our prayer meeting and I was totally late for it because I am so baaaaaaaaad... (tch! tch!)

But I had fun. Really. But guilty as of now. ☺ ♫ ♣

♫ "tralalalala.. la la la.."♪

e-motions, e-mails, e-groups, e-commerce...

2008-06-09T05:17:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: This post has nothing-whatsoever to do with the title..

Today is Monday... In our country, it's a holiday... Well.. Today's not the actual holiday, June 12 is.. but it was moved to a today because June 12's right smack in the middle of the week and in the Philippines, you can't get a break from work in the middle of the week.. Haha. Kidding. But kidding aside, it sure looks that way to me..

So, I planned on spending my day with:
1. Jogging - first thing in the morning... but... I woke up at 7am.. with the sun already up there... so.. cross out JOGGING..
2. My friends and I planned to watch a movie.. but my immediate surroundings wouldn't allow it - and by immediate that would mean my dad. LOL.
3. As I could not do anything with the unfortunate series of events this day, I condoned myself with the "looking forward to go to Paseo --the ultimate hang-out (insert sarcasm)" -but what can do? Paseo is the only decent place nearby - but -here comes the "but" part- but... I ended up cleaning clutter in the living room... (Yay!)

So I spent the rest of the day moping about, walking, swinging in swings and making myself nauseous. And it was fun... super fun.. (bleaugh)

E-motions. Emotional people. Bangs. Eyeliner. Black. I got depressed because of my uselessness today.

HAHA. So, dinner came... and we were all like "the economy is so bad". If there's really a topic that wouldn't get off the dinner table, it's the ECONOMY.

And after dinner, I got to the computer and I started typing away. No, after dinner, I washed plates... Yeah! And I not sick. Haha. There are so many things you think about while washing plates... and now.. I happen to forget what is was I thought about... what was it? Yah.. Why do people tease you when you do something that you usually don't..? Why is thaaaaaat?

Haha.. ramblings are all of these... And this it what I get from being bored all the day...

suicide

2008-05-26T04:20:00.000-07:00

Bungee Jumping: efficient stress reliever, makes you aware of how fragile life is, fun, felt like flying up up and away... away from the world and all its demands, makes you unaware of problems (just scream it out).

I was really screaming up there.... It was so much fun than being stucked at home.. that was my last day of vacation by the way and i enjoyed it. Big time.

i am what i am

2008-05-26T03:56:00.000-07:00

i am infuriated
i am sleepy
i am in pain
i am weeping
i am drowning
i am crying out for help
i am laughing out loud
i am hating it
i am dizzy
i am such a fool
i am not listening
i am bad
i am ripped
i am torn
i am hurt
i am trembling
i am thinking
i am sinking
i am loved.... ♥

as i go through life

2008-05-26T03:38:00.000-07:00

Many people just get into your nerves and they just burst it.

What are you? Someone who knows everything? Actually, you were in my nerves na... dati pa.. and you just had to worsen things.. Who are you ba to say such things to me?

Madami kang alam? Sure... Good for you.. Pero sana alam mong palpak ka din tulad ko.. tulad ng marami... and I want to recognize that fact na lahat tayo may pagkukulang... But in your case ang pagkululang mo... ISIP. Are you that stupid to judge people based on what you only feel and see? Actually, di mo nga nakikita eh.. pero some things come to your mind... Sayo ba? What do you think people see in you...? Hmm..

Minsan talaga kailangan lang natin magisip.. forget doctrine and everything you learn sa school, ma-re-realize mo that you are so much smarter once you learn how to use your brain. Don't look at everything on your side... Masyado ka naman atang magaling nun?

People are not machines. They are not perfect at kung hanap mo ay someone perfect.. Go get yourself a robot. For crying out loud. I actually thought about being your friend pa nga eh... But no... you chose to be someone so magaling, someone so angelic. You really are a pain.

Kahit pa nakaka-asar ka.. I considered you a friend and I was just as scared losing friends but it turns out na hindi pala kaibigan ang turing mo sa akin.

You expected more of me when all I can offer is friendship.

Sorry, but have you ever thought about asking me kung ano talaga turing ko sayo then wala sigurong nasaktan in whatever mushy way. Sayang talaga.

ensuring activity

2008-03-27T19:45:00.000-07:00

haven't posted for months and i want to ensure my blog's activity...

love blogger!! march 27 is cooler! way cooler..

operese

2008-02-03T21:03:00.000-08:00

operese time. woopee.

february four is cool.

yah know..

2007-10-02T04:08:00.000-07:00

Confusion is beautifully, gorgeously, pretty much my thing. I got confused a lot these days.

1. I got confused.. because someone suddenly broke out.. yelled at me.. and that person, we haven't spoken for months.. and suddenly.. he just let it out.. just like that.. just like the old times..
2. After he yelled at me, my brains turned to goo and and my Monday became odd.. really odd.. I was not able to think, I lost many trains of thought.. plus I was thinking of other things that day.. My brain suddenly, at a snap, became crowded.. so crowded for me to remember what happened to my lost notebooks..
3. I lost my notebooks.. and all of my notes are there.. beacuse it's a notebook.. that's why.. I want the sands of time back again.. back to the time when I can still remember things.. when I can still remember where I placed it or where I dropped it.. back to the time when I can remember if I really had it with me that day..
4. I have lots of tasks to do and I'm blogging.. see how confused I am?

I am really one big, lost and missing freak in a very fast moving world.. that's how far you get when you get lost..you go out to the world and say things.. lot's of 'em.

whew

2007-09-10T04:08:00.000-07:00

It's been (like, what?) some months since my last post. And I am not all that inspired to post something interesting as of the moment. So, ta-tah.

island in the sun

2007-07-04T02:21:00.000-07:00

When you’re on a holiday
You can’t find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We’ll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can’t control my brain

hip hip
hip hip

When you’re on a golden sea
You don’t need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We’ll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can’t control my brain

We’ll run away together
We’ll spend some time forever
We’ll never feel bad anymore

double redundancy

2007-07-02T05:05:00.000-07:00

What happened then can also happen now. Scary? But that's the way it is. I guess.

One minute. Two minutes. An hour. A month. Everything can change. And change is good. Really.

What happened? I don't know. Until one day it came. It hit me and... BAM! There. That's what changed my life. And it still is changing my life.

This one is shallow.

a precious moment

2007-05-08T01:00:00.000-07:00

At 7:35 pm on the 7th of May 2007, something beautiful went past my eyes. It was a shooting star. It seemed so near and the clouds blurred its path just right so I could see it. It was the most wonderful experience and I can't stop telling everybody about it until it was already 8pm. It was so magical and the silliest thing that one could do is to make a wish. I made one. And I hope it happens soon. Real soon. I was really thankful for that short time that God gave me to see the star strike the sky like a match. It made me appreciate the ozone layer. If it weren't for that layer, the star wouldn't be magical.

Those few seconds were really the best.

a monologue

2007-04-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

Hi.
How are you?
Can we be friends... again?
Can we start over?
I missed you.
*handshake*
*smiles*
*smiles*
See you around.

No Mind

2007-03-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

Ever experienced a time when your about to drink ketchup because you thought it was your C2?! Haha. I did. It happens when you think about statistics and calculus and speeches and debates and relationships-gone-bad and papers and fallacies and sleep. It happens when you feel that the limits of paperwork and thinking does not exist. Haha. But thinking is actually good. It helps you forget. How can it? I don't know. It just helps you to not think. A very blurred reasoning, right? But you can get it when you're in my flops. Haha.

a walk away

2007-03-27T23:41:00.000-07:00

He's just a walk away
It wasn't my fault
It wasn't his fault
I had nothing to do or say

I asked him to stay
And I made the move
There came no reply!
How could I be so dumb?

It didn't work
I just wasted time
Everything stopped
All of it in vain

He found a new friend
She was my replacement
I can't believe
I was just his garment

I was a failure
The silence remained
It can never be broken
My story would forever be stained

Now I'm hoping
Still hoping
Hoping I'd get it back
But change is constant and stopping is a must

Cool Fever

2007-03-23T01:07:00.000-07:00

What does "cool fever" mean? Having a fever is not cool. So not. Especially when you get it from some sick class. Some classes are really contagious. It kinda gets in your bloodstream, makes you boil and then simmer. Haha. Some slick and sick class that is. But, you also learn something from it. Parameter. Cool word huh? Just makes the tongue glide. Parameter. Whoo. Parameter. I feel really feverish. Maybe it's because of the fact that I'm so depressed with and about the things that I can't do. It's really something, right? Acceptance can really be a big thing. Optimism too. Can you really, actually say that you can do something even if you can't? Can optimism and acceptance be in the same plane? Wow. I am so in pain. Slick rhyme!

Cry. Cry. Cry. Don't.

at seventeen

2007-03-12T04:18:00.000-07:00

I just turned seventeen last Saturday, and so, I'm now seventeen. Ü It was fun. We went to Splash Mountain to get some splashes and to, of course, celebrate the birthday. It was really cool even though it was hot during the day. I can now feel the sun burns.Your birthday celebration is really something that you will always cherish. It can be fun being greeted by all your friends and it can also be fun thanking them for the greetings. But, some parts of that special day can be disappointing or sad when those people whom you consider special greeted you with a bland "Happy Birthday..." or if they didn't greet you at all. That's the downside. But, all in all, it was fun and being seventeen can also entitle you to special privileges like getting two shirts in one shopping trip. Ha ha. ^.^

The Probability of Failing

2007-03-06T00:57:00.000-08:00

Something can seem long when you fail. So today I recieved the result for my Statistics exam. It was so bad. The subject lasts for one hour and thirty minutes but for me, it seemed like it took two hours because of the pain that I felt due to failing the exam. I can't be satisfied with just an "UNO" for my course card. I feel sad whenever I fail exams. There is nerdiness in me, that's why. I feel so bad right now and just have to let it out. I just can't get the reason of computing the probability of this and that. Let's just leave alone the coins, the dices and the playing cards. OK? Let's just leave rats and prisoners alone. OK? They seem to live in harmony. They don't compute about people. They don't compute the probability of being captured or tossed or rolled by a girl with curly hair who can't do Statistics!

But hey, what if they do? Some "King of hearts" is probably (oh yeah, probably) having a hard time today too. Haha.

This day is definitely a perfect day to cry and to bawl at people. It's not only the Statistics exam that gives me the lumpy throat and the teary eyes but also the fact that I feel something missing in my life. I feel the urgent urge to shout at the people who made me feel like this.

I miss you. Even though I want to shout at you that I miss you.

ouch

2007-03-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

aww men! don't leave me please. sniff sniff.. :'C

days to go

2007-03-01T05:28:00.000-08:00

I am turning seventeen on March ten. Hope everything would be okay by then.

I miss someone. I miss the hearty laughs. I miss the smile. I miss you. You kinda like make my day. Don't leave me.

P.S. I love you.

The mushiness of mushed potato. haha.

haha. i know.

2007-03-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

nice

2007-02-27T23:37:00.000-08:00

i am so getting the hang of blogging. ü